Dreams of Loss and Longing

I dreamt about mum. I dreamt that we were living in NW London, where we lived when I was a teenager. She had gone missing from the house, and everybody was in a panic, wondering where to look for her. It is not the first time I have dreamt about that house but it is …

Long Lost Daughter

I dreamt last night that the baby I gave up as a young teenager in the 80s found me and introduced herself to me. The dream was set at our house when we lived in Stony Stratford (Milton Keynes), and when my children were young, except as now, my eldest was absent. I felt sure …

Don’t Cry For Me…

It has been a while. Ordinarily, I try to post here when I have interesting dreams you might enjoy analysing, and I have had some whoppers recently. Lots of dreams about my Dad, my Grandma, her house, having to try to rescue people in peril, that sort of thing. But I have also been in …

RIP Bobby Dog

I have not posted in a while because, mid-way through February, my beautiful dog Bobby unexpectedly succumbed to an unstoppable internal bleed due to liver cancer, that we were completely unaware about. Bobby came to us as a rescue from Romania, who had had six happy years with another family who could no longer look …

Remembering Gay Faith

I had a dream last night about my Auntie, whose name really was 'Gay Faith' which embarrassed her and it was not something she made commonly known. My 'Auntie' was not a blood relative, but she was a family friend with whom I grew up, and loved dearly, who looked after my children when they …

Telling the Losses

On this day 3 years ago I announced my 10th and final pregnancy, knowing it would likely be my 7th loss, which indeed it was, a few weeks later. I didn't know at that point though that it would be my final pregnancy, which is another grief in itself, and doesn't have a 'date' as …

Just Pretend You’re On Holiday

I dreamt that we had just stopped off at my mum's house in London on our way home to Milton Keynes after a holiday in Cornwall. My mum was moaning that she didn't like where they were living in London and that she wanted to move to Penzance.I told her it could kill Daddy to …

Dream: Lost Girl

On Friday night I dreamt that I was on a train with my mother and my children including a baby who seemed to be about 6 months old. I don't know the gender of the baby, and I can't see details like what everybody was wearing, or what age my other children were. We stopped …

Hope and Grief

I suppose I had better get this out of the way. Without putting too fine a point on it, I am no longer pregnant. It has been a week now and although grief has a nasty way of winding you when you least expect it, coming over you in unexpected waves as it does, I …

Red Herrings

In May we started the process of buying a flat. It was beautiful and big, but it had no garden or parking, no garage or storage, and it would have necessitated moving towns amongst other things. It seemed like a good idea at the time - it was a nice town that we all liked …